Date: 20 Oct 2019
scar-L (last destiny writer )
Scar –L (Last destiny writer) scar-L matlab sakshi.mere wo behen ,wo ladki jo bahot kam time me bahot attach ho gaye mujhse. usse mulakat exam section me hi hue tab se ham jante hai ek dusre ko ham dono ka jyada milna nahi hota tha.college me ya fir exams me hi mil pate the.lekin jitna bhi time ham sath rahe he bahot accha time spend kiya hai.pehli mulakat se hi wo mere liye alag rahi ha baki yonse.wo jo uper dikhti thi wo andar se nahi thi.ander bahot kuch dabaye rakha tha usne.mujhe iske bare , is behaviour ke bare pehli bar ek college me pate chili jab ham online exam le rahe the or break me khana kha rahe the tab achanak mere najar uspe padi thi tab khana kha to rahi thi lekin najar mere samne ke glassa pe ya plate pe thi.or palke open hi thi bahot der tak usne palke miteye hi nahi .or mu chalu tha khana khate khate tab mujhe iske bare me bahot alag feel hota tha.college me bhi wo jitne bhi bar dekha usee wo hasi majk karte hi dikhi mujhe lekin hasi majk bad wo kahi pe jakar achanak zero silence ho jati thi jaise kuch time pahle kuch hua hi nahi.ise maine bahot bar notice kiya hai.uske bad aise bahot incedent hue jiske bad maine usse pucha reson lekin usne kuch bataya nahi.
jitna o bate chupani ki koshish karte mujhe utna or janane ki iccha ho rahi thi.lekin last tak koi javab nahi mila aaj tak.jitna time spend kiya usse thoda thoda uske bare me mujhe khud hi nahot feel hone laga uske condition ke bare or mere sare bate usse leker sari sach hoti thi. ye to pata hi laga ab tak ki wo pyar se hari hue ladki hai.(varna o mere contact me aati hi nahi kyunki jo bhi mere karib aaya hai wo sabhi pyar ke mame me unlucky raha hai). ise bare me maine usse kuch pucha nahi.ye bate wo hi mujhe bataye yahi sahi socha maine. usse jitne bar bhi mila hu hamesha usne mujhe hasaya hi hai.baki bahot ladkiya mere life me aakar chili gaye lekin unse wo rishta ya mentaly attachment nahi hue.exam section me bahot bar hm girl invigilator lete the lekin sabme or sakshi me bahot farak tha.baki ladkiya kabhi une karib nahi aa sake jitna sakhi kam time me aaye thi.me thehra silent wo badbad kiya karti thi ye to use bhi pate tha ki me jyda bat nahi karta lekin wo kabhi chup hone ka nam nahi leti thi.
dhere dhere aadat ho gaye uske badbad ki.wo bolti wo uski hinde tunning bahot alag thi normal hinde se.use sur me bolna bhaiya bhiya bol ke sir khana shuruwat me to sir dukhta tha lekin bad me yahi bate mujhe acchi lagne lagi.wo jitna mujhse free bate karti thi utna baki koi aaj tak bat nahi kar paya.uska behaviour hi aisa hai ki wo sabse freely bate karti hai.chahe ladka ho ya ladki.use logonki paehchan karna nahi aata tha ye bat mujhe pate thi lekin use batane ka man nahi kiya.kyunki usse bura laga to accha nahi lagega or jo bat uske man hi nahi hai wo bate mujhe uske man me chili jayengi isliye usse kabhi is bare me bola nahi.college ke boys uske taraf kis najar se dekhte hai wo hame pate tha lekin wo sabko khud ki trah acche samjhti hai. time bit raha tha waise waise usne exam section se dur jati rahi.wo ab jyda exam lene nahi aati thi.to usse contact bhi tut sa gaya tha.lekin college me jab bhi mulakat hoti tab aisa lagta tha ki kal hi to usse mulakt hue ho.hamesha fresh face wo mujhse hamesha milti thi.pehla word yahi raheta uska “hi bhiaya”.uske bad uski saval javab shuru hote the yaha kaise kab aaye or bhi bahot kuch.uske har ek saval ka javab dena bahot hi alag tha mere liye.baki jo bhi ladkiya thi jo exam me aai thi wo second time milne per smile dekar cut jati thi.
lekin sakshi ka aisa nahi tha jab bhi milti thi hamesha fresh or apne pan ke sath milti thi. pate nahi kyu lekin mujhe lagta tha ki wo mujhe kuch kehna chahti hai share karna chahti hai lekin koi bat use rok rahi hai.usne bahot bar insat me khud se hello bola or mere batchit start karne per kuch nahi bola hai.ek bar uska result aaya tha usne bataya or kaha ki gharalo ko khusi nahi uske 9.0 grade result se. uske sath bachit hote hote thoda thoda samjh me aane laga ki uska or uske family ki banti nahi hai. maine kuch pucha nahi.thik nahi lagta aise.ek bar bahot serious bimar padi thi or wo shayed jhansi me thi.report bhi uske normal nahi the .wo khana nahi khati thi is wajah se uski tabeyat kharab ho rahi thi or bolti thi bhuk Nhi lagti .
ise vajah maine use bahot bat gusse me data tha lekin wo manti hi nahi thi har bar khana ha lungi yahi kahti thi.jab wo jhansi se vapas aaye bimari se thik ho ker to wo mujhe mine aaye thi to use dekh kar hi lag raha tha ki wo bahot bimar thi.me exam conduct kar raha tha or wo milne aaye thi break me.lekin time or jagah dono thik nahi the bat karne ke liye.tab bhi usse bahot bar karni thi lekin har bar ki trah jagah time thik nahi tha.jitna hua utni bat hue.lekin accha laga usse milkar qunki waise bhi ham bahot dino bad mil rahe the or wo bi abhi abhi thik hue thi.tab maine usse uski photos li thi uski usne bahot aasani se de di mujhe itna trust tha mujhpe.