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प्यार. क्या होता है ये प्यार 🤔 प्यार एक एहसास है 🤗 जो एक इन्सान दूसरे इन्सान के लिये महसूस करता है. प्यार का मतलब सिर्फ यह नहीं कि हम हमेशा उनके साथ रहे, प्यार तो एक-दूसरे से दूर रह कर भी पास होने का नाम है. प्यार के बारे मे आज तक बहोत लोगोने बहोत कुछ लिखा है. सबने शायरी मे कविता मे गानो मे प्यार के बारे मे बताया है. प्यार के बारे में सभी की राय अलग अलग होती है. ऐसा इसलिए है क्यूंकि सबके life में प्यार का मतलब अलग होता है. कोई अपने मम्मी पप्पा से प्यार करता है, कोई अपने भाई बेहेन से तो कोई अपने प्रेमी या प्रेमिका से. प्यार एक एहसास है जिसे शब्दों में define नहीं किया जा सकता सिर्फ महसूस किया जा सकता है. प्यार जबरदस्ती से नहीं किया जाता वो तो बस अपने आप ही हो जाता है जिसके खबर हमें बाद में होती है.

अक्सर प्यार हमें उन्हीं इंसानों से होता है जिनमें हमें कुछ बाते आकर्षित करती है.

Mera bhi kuch aisa hi tha. Isme koi gujaish nahi, maine jisse pyar kiya wo khubsurat thi. Lekin khubsurati dekh kar pyar karne walo me me nahi. Maine uski chehre ya sharir se nahi, uske man se, aatma se pyar kiya tha. "Shruti" Shruti naam tha uska. Jo meri zindagi me aaye. Jise pyar jaise kisi "cheez" ke baare me pata nahi tha, wo sikha gaye. Shuruwat shuru karta hu.

Waise to me koi writer nahi hu, bas jo hua wo aapko batana chahta hu.

Sabse pahle mai apne baare me bata du mai ek online exam company me job pe hu. Jo bhi aaj online exams hote hai wo conduct karna mera kaam hai. Exam day pe mera kaam hai server handle karna. To isi exam ki wajah se mujhe traveling karna padta hai. Company jo college book karti hai wahan par hame exam ke 4 din pahle jakar preparation karni padti hai usme college staff meeting, PC readiness, mock, printing, room allocation, registration desk, isse bahot se kaam aate hai jo exam se related hote hai. To isi ek exam ke liye mujhe out of city jana pada.

Wahan pe ham college hostel pe stay kiye the. College ne hamare rahne ka intjam kar liya tha. Dusre din me aur mere team college visit karne gaye, wahan ka audit hua college entrance, lab location, direction, allocation ye sab kaam hone ke baad venue spoke (college person responsible for exam process) se baatein hue.

Ab aayi registration desk ki baat. Jab hamare city me exam lete the tab ham temp based team lete the registration process ke liye, lekin hum yahan apne kisi ko nahi jante the. To hamne venue spoke se baat ki, aur unko hi kaha ki hame 5 log chahiye jo computer ke baare me jaante ho aur exam day hame help kare. Sir ne ok kaha aur hame unke hi college ke 5 student mile jo 3rd year me padhte the. Hamne un 5 ke remuneration per day wise fix kia, unko appoint kiya. Sir ne hame unse milwaya aur kaha ki aage ki jo baatein hai wo aap continue karo.

To kahani shuru hoti hai ab. Hame jo 5 student mile unme se 2 girls aur 3 boys the. Ye story jis pe base hai wo inme se hi ek the jinka naam tha Shruti. Aur uske saath the Aanand, Aakash, Tanmay, Anuradha (name changed).

Sabse baat hui aur registration process batane tak baki kaam hone tak 4 baj gaye. Uske baad hum free ho gaye aur wo sab bhi. Unhone hame college dikhaya, lab ke baare me konse PC kaise hai wo yahi ke the to hame count dene me aasani ho gayi. Unko education background IT tha aur mera bhi. Unko programming language thi aur mujhe bhi, PG me. To baaton baaton me Shruti ne kaha ki uske project me kuch error hai. By chance uski chuni hui language aur meri favorite language same thi. Ye 5 log same hi language use kar rahe the project me.

Ab exam ke liye karib 3 din baaki the, exam continue 7 din chalne wali thi, usme 3 din ek baad ek mock thi. Dusre din Aanand laptop lekar aaya, bola project me problem hai, solve kar ke do. Maine haan kiya aur try karne laga. Solve karte waqt itna to pata chala ki ye project Aanand ka nahi hai kyunki database me naam sare girl ke the aur project topic girls se related karta tha. Mere puchne pe usne kaha ki project Shruti ka hai mera nahi. To maine kaha wo khud lekar aati, tumhe kyon diya? To wo bola aap hi bolo usko. Me thehhra silent person, me kisi se jyada baat nahi karta tha, to main kya karta.

Maine error solve karne laga lekin project flow kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha. Aanand se puchne pe use bhi nahi pata tha project ke baare me kyunki wo uska tha hi nahi. To majboori me Shruti hi aa gayi flow batane ki liye. Wo thi pehli mulaqaat meri Shruti se. Pehle baat karne me wo ghabra rahi thi thoda darna, unknown ness saf dikhaye de raha tha. Use jyada, mujhe comfort mahsoos nahi ho raha tha. Mere kabhi ladkiyon se baatein nahi hoti ya yun kahu main hi kisi se baat nahi karta.

Jaise taise error solve kar diya. Uske liye time nahi laga mujhe me UG aur PG me same language continue kiya tha. Ab tak sab error solve pata chal chuka tha. Error solve karne par wo itna khush hue kya batau uske reaction dekhne layak the. Do din me pehli baar maine use itna hanste hue aur free hokar baat karte dekha. Usne kaha iss error pe wo last 7 din se kaam kar rahi thi par problem solve nahi hua tha, jo maine 2 minute me kiya tha. Bas yahin se shuruwat ho gayi.

Aanand aur Tanmay se pata chala ki Shruti jaisa behave kar rahi hai waise wo hai nahi, aap naye ho isliye aisa behave kar rahi hai. Pehle mujhe yakeen nahi hua lekin third day ko ye confirm hua. Mock start karke hum canteen me kuch khane ke liye ja rahe the tab Shruti, Anuradha aur unka group dikhayi diya. Us waqt maine use zor zor se hanste, taaliyan maarte dekha pehle ajeeb laga. Tabhi usne hame dekh liya aur achanak se dusri taraf muh ghuma liya. Mai samajh gaya ki use sharam aa rahi thi, to hamne use ignore kiya aur chale gaye canteen.

Mock khatam hone ke baad 5 baj gaye the. Ham hostel pe hi ruke the aur Aanand, Tanmay bhi usi hostel pe rehte the, to exam hone tak hum nashta, khana unke hi saath karne wale the. Unhone hostel ki saari jagah aur zaroori chezon ke baare me bataya.

Next day kuch kaam nahi tha sirf direction ki printing aur CCTV ka check aur aise chhote-mote kaam the jo 1 baje tak ho gaye the. Baaki bahut time tha hamare paas. To socha sabse baat kar liya jaaye. Doosre din exam the to lab saare band kar diye gaye, lectures bhi nahi the. Hamne unhe call karke bulaya aur sab aa bhi gaye sirf ek ke: Shruti. Puchne pe pata chala wo aaj college hi nahi aayi, bimaar thi, aur exam ke first day ko bhi aane wali nahi thi.

Ise achanak bimaar padne ka karan puchne par pata chala wo har mahine 2 din hospital admit hoti hai. Lekin uski jagah pata nahi chal payi, hame laga hoga koi reason. Ham sab canteen ja kar kuch khane ka socha aur chale gaye. Jitna time ham unke saath bita rahe the, wo sab hamare aur bhi acche friend banne lage wo hamse sirf 1-2 saal chote the to hame friendzone hone me dikkat nahi hui. Canteen me bahut masti hui, photos nikale, mazak-masti aur bahut kuch hua. Sab hone ke baad dusre din se exam start hone wale the to sab hostel ko chale gaye aur hamne sabko jaldi uthne ko kaha kyunki registration 8 baje start tha.

Exam ke first din subah sab ready tha. Tab kuch ajeeb hua Shruti ki replace jo aane wali thi wo to nahi aayi, khud Shruti aa gayi. Wo nahi aane wali thi lekin aa gayi. Socha acchi baat hai. Formally hamne use tabiyat ke baare me pucha to "thik hai" jawab mila lekin lag nahi raha tha. Weakness saf dikhe de rahi thi. Fir hamne confirm kiya ki kaam ho payega ya nahi usne acha khasa dialog chipka diya:

Shruti: "Shruti jo thaan leti hai wo kar ke chhodti hai."

Uska ye andaaz hamare liye naya tha. Registration start hua, first batch, baad me second batch acche se ho gaye. Problem hui third batch ko ek candidate count zyada tha aur usme bhi Shruti ki tabiyat kharab ho gayi. Wo weakness feel karti thi to registration ke liye 4 log hi lage hue the. Jo venue spoke the unhone Shruti ko waiting room me rest ke liye jaane bol diya. Third batch khatam hone tak to thik ho gayi thi.

Ye sab mujhe aur mere partner ko kuch ajeeb lag raha tha. Hamne us waqt to kuch nahi kaha lekin exam hone pe hostel me Aakash, Aanand, Tanmay ko bulaya aur unse jaanne ki koshish ki. Tab saari sachai pata chal gayi. Aakash ne bataya ki Shruti jab freely bolti hai to samajh lena ki wo sad hai ya fir gusse me hai. Ye sunkar pehle hasi aayi lekin baad me puri baatein pata chalne pe bura bhi laga. Us raat karib 12-12:15 tak hum jaage hue the.

Aakash ne bataya ki Shruti ko bimari hai jiska naam tha Thalassemia. Is bimari me insaan ki body khud khoon tayaar nahi kar sakti. Use har 1-2 mahine me blood chadhana padta hai, isliye Shruti ko 1-2 mahine me hospital me admit hona padta hai. Is bimari ki wajah se wo na to kisi sport event me participate kar sakti hai, na zyada bhaag-daud wale kaam kar sakti hai. Agar time par blood na chadhaane pe seedha jaan pe ban sakti hai. Aur jo donor hai wo insaan same hona chahiye kyunki same blood group hone pe bhi body accept nahi karti blood ko, isliye donor fix hona zaroori hai. Shruti ke mamle me uska donor koi Nagpur ka tha jo Shruti ko blood donate karta tha.

Ye sab sunne ke baad kya bolein kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha. Duniya me aisi bimari hai pata nahi tha. Sachai jaanne ke baad hamne faisla kiya ki kal se Shruti ko zyada workload nahi diya jaayega. Aakash ne hamse promise liya ki ye sachai usne hame batayi hai, ye Shruti ko nahi pata chahni chahiye use gussa aayega. Aanand ne bataya ki Shruti ko logon ki daya, sympathy se gussa aata hai aur bimari ke baare me kisi se baat bhi accha nahi lagta. Uska kehna tha ki bimari ka pata chalne pe log apna behavior change karte hai use pe daya dikhaate hai, use helpless samajhte hai ye sab use bilkul nahi pasand thi. Ye sunkar hame aur bhi proud feel hone laga Shruti pe.

Baatein karte karte karib 1 baj gaye the aur 6 din exam abhi bhi baaki the. Sab log "good night" bolke sone chale gaye.

Next din sab planning ki tarah chal raha tha batches chal rahe the. Mere partner ne jaanboojhkar Shruti ko last wala registration desk pe bithaya. Third batch start ho gayi thi aur main batch start karne registration desk ka backup lene gaya. Backup lene ke baad karib 30 minutes main free hi rehta tha. Tab wahan pe Shruti akeli thi.

Shruti aa kar puchi:

Shruti: Main thik se kaam nahi karti kya?
Me: Isme kuch nahi hai, tumhe aisa kyun laga?
Shruti: Kal se notice kar rahi hoon ki aap mujhe kuch responsibility nahi de rahe hai.

Ab ye baat to sahi thi lekin reason ab use kaise batata? To maine dusri taraf muh karke kaha:

Me: Nahi, isme kuch nahi hai.

Lekin wo maanne waalon me se nahi thi. Usko to sach jaanna hi tha. Uska doosra sawaal se meri bolti band ho gayi thi:

Shruti: Mere baare me kisine kuch bola hai kya?

Maine nahi bola lekin mere expression se use pata chal gaya. Uska 3rd sawaal:

Shruti: Meri bimari ke baare me aapse kisine kuch bola kya?

Ab to main buri tarah fass gaya. Lekin iski zaroorat nahi padi. Shruti ne kaha:

Shruti: Mujhe alag se treat karne ki zaroorat nahi hai. Main thik hoon, jaisi hoon thik hoon. Mujhe kisi ki sympathy ki zaroorat nahi hai.

Yo bolkar gusse me chali gayi. Mujhe samajh nahi aaya kuch. Maine chup rehna hi thik samjha. Main backup lene laga. 1 minute ke baad hi dobara Shruti wapas aa gayi. Mere haal bahut kharab thi lekin jo maine expect kiya wo nahi hua. Usne dusri taraf dekhkar mujhse baat karne lagi:

Shruti: Sorry. Maine gusse me zyada bol diya. Aap mere care kar rahe the par maine aapko gusse se bola.
Me: Nahi, isme koi baat nahi. Jo bola sahi bola. Lekin hum koi sympathy nahi dikha rahe the, just care kar rahe the, baaki kuch nahi.
Shruti: Sorry... mujhe aisa nahi bolna tha.

Wo itna sorry bol rahi thi, mujhe accha nahi lag raha tha to maine topic change karne ki koshish ki aur tabiyat ke baare me pucha:

Shruti: Sab sach to pata chal gaya hai aapko mere baare me to ab kya chhupaane wali baat nahi. 2 din pehle mera date tha blood transfer ka. To uske liye nahi aa payi. Aur doosre din aaraam karne ko kehte hai doctor, isliye 1-2 mahine 2 din ke liye mujhe admit hona padta hai. Body ko blood accept karne me time lagta hai. Doosre din nahi aane wali thi par hospital me let kar bore hone se accha yahan aana thik samja. To aa gayi.

Ye mere usse shayad 3rd mulaqaat thi aur pehli baar usne itna kuch bol diya. Lekin accha laga koi apni baatein share karta hai to. Iske baad se haari baatein badhti gayi. Wo bhi ab Aakash, Aanand ki tarah freely hamse baat karti thi.

Jaise jaise din beet rahe the waise Aakash, Aanand, Shruti se meri batchit badne lagi. Ek din is pe topic nikla ki main zyada baat kyun nahi karta sab puchne lage, isme Shruti ko bahut interest tha wajah jaanne ki. Usne seedha bola:

Shruti: Breakup hua tha kya jo itna chup rehte ho aap?

Ye baat bolne pe mujhe pehle kuch samajh nahi aaya. Aakash, Aanand, Tanmay, Anuradha sab Shruti ki taraf dekhne lage. Sab silent the. Shruti ko chocolate khane ki aadat thi, usne packing khol di thi. Sab uski taraf dekhne lage to usne chocolate khaate khaate rukkar neeche utar ke bola:

Shruti: Maine kuch galat puch liya kya?

Maine kuch nahi bola. Wo ghabrakar bahar chali gayi. Aur 10 second mein dobara registration room me jhaankkar bola:

Shruti: Galat bol diya kya?

Ab is waqt sab hasne lage siwaye mere. Aakash ne bola ki jab Shruti achanak koi baat bole jo use nahi bolni hai tab uski taraf dekhna wo ghabra jaati hai. Ab ye sunkar to mujhe bhi hasi aayi. Shruti seedha uthkar Aakash aur Anuradha ko chapat lagane lagi. Sab hasne lage. Shruti bolne lagi:

Shruti: Main kisi se nahi darti, main to chocolate ka cover phenkne bahar chali gayi thi.

Ye bolne pe sab ne ek hi sur me bola:

Sab: Ohhhh aisa kyaaaaaaa……

Shruti gusse me apne desk pe jakar dono haath pe sir rakh ke baith gayi. Maine sabko chup baithne ko bola. Sab chup baith gaye. Shruti achanak se oopar hamare taraf dekhkar boli:

Shruti: Itna sannata kyun hai bhai?

Ab to sab hasne lage. Sach me wo moment funny tha.

Next batch ka time hone laga to sab apne kaam me lag gaye. Shruti bhi apne registration desk pe baith gayi. Usne meri taraf dekha aur fake smile di, fir se neeche dekha. Usne right haath se right kaan ko pakadkar dheemi awaaz me sorry bola jaise ham bachpan me dono kaan pakadke sorry bolte the. Main "ok" me sir hilaate hue kaha. Usne fir se rahat bhari smile de di.

Roz ki tarah backup lene gaya. Wahan pe Shruti already baithi thi, mobile me sir daale. Thodi der baad uski harkatein ajeeb hone lagi wo mobile pe itni fast swipe kar rahi thi ki puchho mat. Maine zara uski face ki taraf dekha to gussa saf dikhe de raha tha. Achanak se gusse me mobile table pe rakh di aur table pe haath rakhkar uspe sir rakhkar baith gayi.

Maine jhooth hi sahi puch liya:

Me: Sir dard kar raha hai kya?
Shruti: Mujhe akela chhod do.

Ye kahne ke baad usne achanak se oopar meri taraf dekha aur kaha:

Shruti: Sorry, mujhe laga Anu (Anuradha) hai. Sorry.

Ye kahkar wo chali gayi bahar room se.

Last batch khatam hone pe Shruti confirmation batane ke liye aa gayi thi ke laptop rakh diye hain. Usne thik se kaam kar diya. Aur mujhse bola:

Shruti: Ek baat puch sakti hoon?
Me: Haan.

Mujhe laga ye server ya device ke baare me puchegi. Lekin usne pucha:

Shruti: Kya sach me breakup hua tha kya?

Maine pehle uski taraf dekha. Wo ghabra gayi aur boli:

Shruti: Nahi, bas aise hi, main chalti hoon.

Aur nikal hi ja rahi thi, maine rokkar bola:

Me: Ruko.
Shruti: Nahi, nahi puchungi dobara, sorry.
Me: Doosra charger bhi bag me rakh do.

Ye uske liye unexpected tha. Baad me maine hi bola:

Me: Main pehle se hi aisa hi hoon, silent. Koi breakup wagerah nahi hua tha. Lekin itna bataya ki BCA me ek ladki pasand thi just usse baat hoti thi. Usse koi aur pasand karta tha, uske dhamki bhare WhatsApp messages aa rahe the, isliye dono ke beech me se hat jaana sahi samjha. Usse pyar nahi tha lekin haan acchi lagti thi.
Shruti: Haan to ye bhi breakup category me hi aata hai.
Me: Jaisa tumhe thik lage.

Raat ko khana khane ke baad mobile check kiya WhatsApp pe message aaye the:

Shruti: Sorry, mera dhyaan nahi tha. Mujhe laga ki Anu aayi hai to Anu samajhkar maine wo bola tha.
Me: Koi baat nahi. Lekin hua kya tha aisa jo itna gussa aaya tha? Agar tum batana chahti ho to batao, varna koi baat nahi.
Shruti: Fir kabhi.
Me: Thik hai. Good night.

Sone laga tabhi aur ek message aaya:

Shruti: Mujhe trip ke liye jaana tha lekin Chacha ji nahi chhod rahe hai.
Me: Kyun?
Shruti: Meri bimari.
Me: Chacha ko kyun puch rahi ho, Papa se puchna.

Message read to kiya usne lekin agle 1 minute tak koi reply nahi aaya. Tabhi dimag me kuch yaad aa gaya ki Shruti ki Mummy Papa nahi hai use Chacha Chachi sambhaalte hai. Maine khud sorry bola.

Shruti: Koi baat nahi.
Me: Iska bimari se kya lena dena?
Shruti: Last time jab trip gaye thi tab chot lagi thi, thoda bahut khoon beh gaya tha. Us waqt main ghar se door thi, mujhe trip se separate traveling ka intjam karke wapas bulaya tha ghar pe. Bas tab se mera trip jaana band ho gaya.
Me: Sahi to keh rahe the wo unhe chinta hai tumhari, isliye mana kar rahe hai.
Shruti: Lekin mujhe jaana hai.
Me: Pagal hai kya? Fir aisa kuch hua to? Pichhli baar kam chot thi, is baar zyada lagi to? Aur upar se teri bimari...

Itna bolke main chup ho gaya aage kuch nahi bola.

Me: Shayad maine zyada bol diya. Sorry.
Shruti: Kya sorry? Har baar aap sorry kyun bolte ho. Galti ho to alag baat hai, yun hi sorry kyun bolte ho aap.
Me: (silent)
Shruti: Ab bolo bhi...
Me: Kya bolun?
Shruti: Jo bol rahe the wohi bolo bimari kuch bol rahe the aap.
Me: Nahi, kuch nahi.
Shruti: Mujhe aadat ho gayi hai in sabki. Mujhe kuch bura nahi lagta ab. Main jo bhi karna chahun to meri bimari beech me aati hai. Sab sapnon pe paani fer deti hai. Bahut kuch chhod diya maine is wajah se. Pata nahi kya paap kiye the, Bhagwan ne aisa kyun kiya mere saath.

Maine aaj tak kisi ladki ko ulta jawab nahi diya, rulana to door ki baat hai. Lekin aaj anjaane me hi sahi, main kaaran bana uski rone ki. Bahut gussa aaya mujhe khud par. Wo jab bol ke chup ho gayi, maine dheemi awaaz me sorry bola.

Shruti: Kya sorry... Sorry... Galti ki ho to sorry bolo na, ye kya hai baar baar sorry sorry laga rakha hai.
Me: (silent)
Shruti: Hello? So gaye kya aap? Hello?
Me: Nahi, yahin pe hoon. Bolo.
Shruti: Chup kyun ho gaye the aap? Bolo na.
Me: Kya bolun ab?
Shruti: Kaise ho aap? Aapko gussa nahi aata kya?
Me: Isme gusse wali kya baat hai?
Shruti: Ye bhi main hi bolun? Aap mere bhaale ke baare me bol rahe ho, main ulta jawab de rahi hoon to gussa nahi aaya?
Me: Mujhe ladkiyon se na jhagda karna aata hai, aur na baat karaayi aati hai. Bas jo sahi lagta hai wo bolta hoon main.
Shruti: 🤣💙
Me: Kya hua?
Shruti: 💙 kuch nahi.

Mujhe nahi pata chala aakhir hua kya, lekin accha laga ki wo has rahi hai. Jaan me jaan aayi. 1 minute tak dono online hi the lekin dono me se koi nahi bola. Tabhi typing... message aaya:

Shruti: Aap bakiyon se bahut alag ho. Aap kuch alag baat hai. Baaki ladkon me aur aapme bahut fark hai.

Mujhe samajh nahi aaya wo taarif kar rahi hai ya burai. Shayad burai kar rahi thi.

Shruti: Taarif kar rahi hoon, burai nahi. 💙
Me: Kaisi ladki ho tum kya bolti ho kuch samajh hi nahi aata.
Shruti: 💙
Me: Tumhara mujhe kuch samajh nahi aata. Tum kis mood me baat kar rahi ho kab gussa hoti ho, kab roti ho kuch samajh nahi aata mujhe.
Shruti: Gussa aaya?
Me: Maine kab bola aisa.
Shruti: Kuch nahi, rehne do. 😁😁😂 Good night. Kal bhi hai exam, uthna hai jaldi. Bye.

Mujhe is ladki ka kuch samajh nahi aata tha. Jaane do, samajh ke bahar hai. Aur sone laga.

Kal subah same kaam sab chal raha tha. Registration room me chala gaya. Wahan pe sabhi the Aanand, Aakash, Anu, Shruti. Shruti meri taraf dekhkar hasne lagi. Maine uski taraf dekhna laga bina kuch bole. Karib 10 second maine uski taraf dekh raha tha. Wo 2 second ke liye shaant hui, fir wapas se hasne lagi.

Mera to dimag kharab ho raha tha. Main registration desk on karke niklne laga. Tabhi peeche se awaaz aayi:

Shruti: Sorryyeee... 💙

Ab mujhe gussa aane laga. Maine gusse me hi uski taraf dekha Anu ne usse dhakka dekar meri taraf ishaara kiya. Wo hanste hanste meri taraf dekh rahi thi. 2 second baad chup ho gayi. Chhote bachhon ki tarah muh par ungali rakhi aur haan me sir hilaya. Maine kuch na bolna hi behtar samjha. Nikal gaya wahan se.

Backup lene ke liye wapas registration room me chala gaya. Anu wahan se nikal gayi. Shruti khud mere side wale PC par aakar baith gayi aur mujhe thank you bola. Maine gusse me hi uski taraf dekhte hue:

Me: Kyun?

Jab puchne ke baad uski taraf dekha to nazara kuch aur hi tha uske aankhon me aansu the aur wo has rahi thi. Mujhe ajeeb laga.

Me: Sorry... kuch zyada gussa ho gaya. Sorry. Wo...

Meri baat beech me hi katkar wo bolne lagi:

Shruti: Bahut dinon baad aise khulke haskar accha lag raha hai. Kitne dinon baad koi mila jo mujhe hasa sake. Mujhe last kab main itna hasi thi yaad nahi. Roz hasi-mazak hoti hai lekin unme wo baat nahi hai. Aap itne alag kyun hai baaki ladkon se? Maine kitne ladkon ko dekha hai jo ladkiyon se baat karne ke liye kya kya kar jaate hai line maarne se lekar ched-chaad, mobile pe message karna. Aur aap hai ki ladki khud se baat kar rahi hai aur aap baat hi nahi karte. Pehli baar aisa ladka dekha hai life me jo itna door bhaagta hai ladkiyon se. Itni chhoti baat pe sorry bolna, ladkiyon ko special treat karna matlab aisa kaise ho aap?
Me: (silent)
Shruti: Bolo bhi... ab.
Me: Tum ro rahi ho ya gusse me ho?
Shruti: (silent) Pehle mere sawaal ka jawab do.
Me: Kya?
Shruti: Wahi... aisa kaise ho aap?
Me: Bas main aisa hi hoon.
Shruti: Kya jawab hai... 🤣 Ghar pe bhi aap aise hi rehte ho, shaant? Ya ladkiyon se hi aisa behave karte ho?
Shruti: Aapko behen hai?
Me: Haan hai, 3 hai.
Shruti: Kya? Fir bhi tum ladkiyon se baat karne me itna sharmaaate ho?
Me: Sharmaaata nahi hoon main. Mujhe aadat nahi hai ladkiyon se baat karne ki.
Shruti: Aisa kaise nahi hai? Behen bhi to ladki hi hai na unse kaisi baatein karte ho? Waise se baaki ladkiyon se baat kiya karo na.

Ab mera family situation isko kya bataaun. Maine jhooth bol diya ki 3 behnen hain, unme hi lagi rehti hain main sabse chhota hoon, sabki shaadi ho chuki hai. Family me Mummy Papa hain sirf, unse zyada batchit nahi hoti.

Mere eye contact se usse lag raha tha ki main jhooth bol raha hoon. Usne topic change karte hue bola:

Shruti: Ab aur kitne din hain exam?
Me: 2 din.

Aaj se pehle mujhe aisa kisine sawaal-jawab nahi kiya tha wo bhi ek ladki se. Usne jo baatein boli, sawaal puchhe usse man shaant sa ho gaya tha mera.

Shruti: Aap ek paheli hain, jise main nahi suljha pa rahi hoon.
Me: Kya karogi jaankar mere baare me? Mujhe apni baatein share karna, sympathy lena ye sab accha nahi lagta. Itna kisi ki life ke baare me jaanne ki zaroorat nahi hai tumhe.

Bhaavnaao me aakar maine kuch zyada bol diya. Lekin ab der ho chuki thi. Main sorry bolta, usse pehle hi Shruti ne hi sorry bola:

Shruti: Sorry... main shayad kuch zyada personal me gayi. Main aapko pichhle kuch dinon se hi to jaan rahi hoon. Itni personal baatein puchna sahi nahi tha. Galti ho gayi mujhse. Sorry.

Wo chali gayi. Pehli baar koi mujhe itne karib se jaanne ki koshish kar raha tha, friend samajhkar baat kar raha tha aur main hoon ki seedha bol diya "mere personal life me dhyaan mat do." Galat kiya maine. Man hi man khud ko daantne laga.

Last batch ko Anu apna project lekar mere paas aayi saath me Shruti thi. Anu ne project dikhaaate hue bola:

Anu: Ye maine form design kiya hai, code bhi kiya hai lekin information database me save nahi ho raha hai.

Aanand, Aakash bhi aa chuke the jaise koi show laga hai. Maine pehle project execute kiya, record fill kiya, save button pe click kiya. Compiler error show karne laga error tha address ke column ka naam "add".

Me: Problem solve, run karke dekho record save ho jaayenge.
Anu: Is problem ko hum pichle ek hafte se solve karne ki koshish kar rahe the. Net se code copy paste kiya fir bhi nahi ho raha tha. To aapka kaise ho gaya?
Me: Code me problem dhundhte to aur 1 saal bhi tumhe problem nahi milti. Code sahi hai, database me column name galat hai.
Anu: Aisa? Column name kuch bhi de sakte hain hum, to usme kya problem hai?
Me: Nahi koi bhi nahi de sakte. Kuch keywords hain jo reserve hain database ke liye. Tum jo "add" naam de rahi thi column ko wo galat hai "add" ek keyword hai jo math function ki tarah use hota hai. Database ke compiler ko lagta hai tum addition kar rahi ho, aur wo error create karta hai.

Project run karne pe ek baat notice ki thi maine form ke neeche likha tha: Developed by Shruti. Matlab wo project Anu ka nahi, Shruti ka tha. Us waqt kuch nahi bola. Jab second batch start ho gayi tab Shruti ka message aaya:

Shruti: Thank you.
Me: Kyun?
Shruti: Project mera tha.
Me: Pata hai.
Shruti: Ye baat mujhe pata hai.
Me: Kaise?
Shruti: "Developed by."
Me: To jhooth kyun bola ki Anu ka hai?
Shruti: Bas gussa aaya tha kal ki baat pe.
Me: To shaant kaise hua?
Shruti: Error solve karne ke baad.
Me: Isme hasne wali kya baat hai?
Shruti: Mujhe gussa karna nahi aata.
Me: Kisne bola ye jhooth?
Shruti: Aata hai mujhe?
Me: Haan aata hai. Shakal se saf dikhe deta hai.
Shruti: Aisa kaise, sab to bolte hain mujhe gussa karna nahi aata.
Me: Chhodo ye sab. Aanand ko bhej do, server me kaam hai.
Shruti: Thik hai.

Ab wo friendly ho gaye the itne dinon me. Raat ko khana khaate waqt bhi baatein hoti rehti thi. Tab hamare baare mein general baatein hoti thi single ho ya nahi, company, education, aur bahut kuch.

Main jo baatein Aanand, Aakash ko bolta tha wo sab jakar Shruti, Anu se share karte the. Jab main kuch apne baare me raat ko Aanand, Aakash ko bolta tha, uske pe dusre din Anu, Shruti sawaal-jawab karte the.

Last night ko sabne mujhe target kiya:

Sab: Teri koi girlfriend hai ya nahi? Kon hai wo, photo dikhao. Nahi hai girlfriend to kyun nahi hai aap to itna programming me perfect ho, tab to line lagni chahiye.
Me: Main kisi se baat nahi karta class ki ladkiyon se.
Sab: Programming ke bahaane hi sahi ladkiyon se baat karo, jaanboojhkar error create karo solve karo...
Me: Mujhe in sab me nahi padna.
Sab: Kya sir!...
Me: Haan, ab aisa hi hai mera.
Sab: Koi fikar na sir, hum hain aapke saath, hum dhundheinge bhabhi aapke liye. Fikar mat karo.

Doosre din fir se Anu aur Shruti peeche pad gayi:

Sab: Aapko kaisi ladki pasand hai sundar chahiye, gori, kaali, chhoti bolo kaisi chahiye.
Me: Maine is baare nahi socha.

Anu jyada baat nahi karti thi lekin wo jab sawaal karti to proper way me, seedha puchti thi:

Anu: Pehle koi ladki thi kya aapki life mein? Kuch hua tha jiske baad aapne sab chhod diya?
Shruti: Personal baat hai, nahi bata sakte hame yahi na?
Anu: Tu chup kar, bolne de unko.

Waise to main is sawaal ka jawab dena nahi chahta tha lekin jawab dene ka man kiya:

Me: Ek thi college me jo project se related kaam lekar aati thi. Use project me kuch naya karne me zyada interest tha. To aati thi help maangne aur har baar "thank you" bolkar jaati thi. Usse zyada project se related hoti thi. Ham error se related freely baat karte the. Agar hum kabhi Lab se bahar bhi milte to sirf smile dete the ek doosre ko. Bas yahi thi, ek dost hi nazar se dekha last tak usse.
Anu: Sach?
Me: Matlab haan, main pasand karta tha lekin kabhi baat nahi ki is baare me usse. Mujhe in sab me nahi padna tha.
Anu: Mushkil hai aapka. 🤣🙏
Shruti: Main to ye pehle se bol rahi thi inke saath breakup hua hai.
Shruti: Are haan, ye bhi breakup me aata hai. Maanlo meri baat ko.
Me: Jaisa tumhe thik lage.

Sirf ek din bacha tha exam ka. Ab last din tha sab udaas the, khas kar Aanand, Anu, Shruti. Fir puchne lage:

Sab: Fir kab wapas exam ke liye aaoge?
Ham: Jab exam dobara hongi tab zaroor aayenge.
Anu/Shruti: Aap to jaaoge, 7 ke baad hame hostel se bahar allow nahi hai. Hame bhi aana hai.
Anu: Kal chalte hain na? Aap kal raat ko wapas chale jaao na?
Me: Possible hai. Hame kal subah hi server submit karna padta hai.

Hamne college ke venue head se baat karke unko hostel se permission lene ko bola unhone permission de di.

Last din ka exam khatam hone ke baad sab staff se milkar hum seedha paas ke hi ek chhote hotel me chale gaye. Photo session hua, khana ho gaya. Ab baari thi good bye kehne ki.

7 din tak unke saath rehkar lagav sa ho gaya tha. Kabhi na bolne wali Anu bhi bol padi:

Anu: Ho sake to agle exam ko wapas aa jaao.
Aakash, Aanand: Haan sir, wapas aa jaao. Nahi hue to bhi milne aa jaao full masti karte hain.
Ham: (haan me sir hilaya)

In sab me ek baat sab notice kar rahe the bak-bak karne wali Shruti aaj chup thi. Sabka hona ke baad target Shruti thi:

Anu: Kya Shruti, muh se phuto kuch to. Khali time me to bahut bolti ho.
Shruti: Kuch nahi, bas aisa hi.
Aakash: Dal mein kuch kaala hai. 🎉
Aanand: Didi emotional ho gayi. 💙💙
Shruti: Aisa kuch nahi hai.

Thodi der baad:

Shruti: Aap sab ki yaad aayegi. Itne dinon mein bahut maza aaya. Roz college me aana-jaana, lectures ye sab boring ho raha tha. Pichhle 7 dinon mein bahut kuch naya seekhne mila. To thank you.
Aakash: Ohh... Aabhaar Pradarsharshan....
Friend: Kya hua hai, saf saf bolo. Dost ki tarah baat karo. Chalo batao.
Shruti: Nahi, aise koi baat nahi.
Friend: Pakka?
Shruti: Haan, pakka.

Ham niklane lage. Jaate jaate hamne sorry bol diya sabne bade man se sorry na kehne ko kaha:

Sab: Hamne galti ki, aapne daant diya, baat khatam. Wapas zaroor aayiye sir aap log.

Aakhri sab ko wapas good bye bola. Shruti silent hi thi abhi tak. Fake smile dekar bye-bye me haath hilaya.

Hame bus stand chhodne ke liye Aakash aur Aanand chal rahe the. Aakash waise to bahut rok-tok karne wala, jhagde me sabse aage, thoda gusse wala, lekin friendship ke liye kuch bhi kar gujarne wala tha. College me use "Babbar Sher" ke naam se jaante the. Wo aaj mujhse thoda shaant hokar baat karne laga:

Aakash: Sir, thank you. Hamari madad karne ke liye project me hum bahut dinon se kaam kar rahe the, nahi ho raha tha, aapne help ki.
Me: Thanks.
Aakash: Aur ek baat sir Shruti ki baat ka bura mat maanana. Wo muh pe jo aata hai bol deti hai lekin dil ki bahut acchi hai. Usse Thalassemia hai, is wajah se use har 1-2 mahine me blood chadhana padta hai. Isi wajah se kabhi-kabhi chid-chid ho jaati hai. Uske Mummy-Papa bhi nahi hain Chacha-Chachi ke saath rehti hai. Oopar se chahe jitni bhi gusse wali lagti ho, andar se bahut soft hai. Use sympathy nahi chahiye bas log use normal treat karein, yahi chahti hai.
Me: Is pe koi permanent ilaaj nahi hai kya?
Aakash: Nahi. Use har 1-2 mahine me khoon lena padta hai. Chhoti si chot bhi dangerous ho sakti hai. Isliye hum sab uska khayal rakhte hain lekin wo khud hi bhool jaati hai.
Aanand: Koi nahi, hum sab hain uske saath. Jab tak possible hai tab tak saath rahenge.
Friend: Dosti bahut pakki hai yaar tum sabki. Aisi hi raho.
Aakash, Aanand: Haan sir, thank you.

Tab tak haari bus aa gayi. Ham chadhne lage. Khidki se bahar dekha Aakash keh raha tha:

Aakash: Sir ji, bhabhi dhundhte hain ham tohre khaatir tussi chinta mat karo, ham hain na!

Me: (muskuraate hua) Haha...

Bus chalne lagi. 10 minute baad hi group pe pehla message Shruti ka aaya:

Shruti: Happy Journey.
Aakash: Sir ji ladki kuch keh rahi hai.
Me: 🙏🤔 Thank you.
Aakash: Smile bhejna tha 😂🤣
Shruti: 😠😠
Aakash: 🤐🤐

Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aaya. Maine ignore kiya aur so gaya.

Agli subah dekha to group me bahut messages delete ho chuke the. Maine Anu se pucha:

Me: Kya hua hai?
Anu: Kuch nahi, bas masti chal rahi thi.
Me: Itne messages delete hue hain, sach batao.
Anu: Sab Shruti ko chidha rahe the ki wo aapko pasand karti hai.
Me: Kya bol rahi ho? Aisa kuch nahi hai.
Anu: Jisko gussa hona chahiye wo nahi ho rahi, aap ho rahe ho.
Me: Matlab?
Anu: Wo sharma rahi hai.
Me: Aisa mazak thik nahi hai.
Anu: Hmm...
Me: Kya?
Anu: Jo aapne bola wahi Shruti ne bhi bola tha.
Me: Use bolo online aaye.

Thodi der baad:

Shruti: 👀
Me: Maine pehle hi bola tha ki mujhe in sab me interest nahi hai. Maine tumhe kabhi us nazar se nahi dekha, aur na dekhunga. Please galat mat samajhna.
Shruti: To ab dekh lo.
Me: Tum pagal ho kya? Maine abhi kya bola wo nahi samjha?
Shruti: Problem kya hai?
Me: Goodbye.

Maine chat band kar di. Baad me uska "Sorry" message aaya lekin maine reply nahi kiya. 5-6 din tak maine kisi se baat nahi ki.

Aakash: Sorry.
Aanand: Sorry.
Me: It's ok.
Aakash: Hame ye baat nahi karni chahiye thi.
Me: Topic yahin khatam karo.
Aakash, Aanand: Ok.

Dheere dheere sab normal hone laga. Maine Aakash se pucha:

Me: Wo gussa hai kya?
Aakash: Pehle thi, ab normal hai. Bas aapse baat karne me darna lag raha hai.
Me: Mujhe pyaar-vyaar me nahi padna. Sirf dosti thik hai.
Aakash: Thik hai, main samjha dunga.
Me: Maine pehli baar kisi ladki se itne gusse me baat ki hai. Accha nahi lag raha.
Aakash: Aap alag ho sabse.
Me: Mujhe kisi ko hurt karna accha nahi lagta.
Aakash: Main baat karta hoon usse.
Me: Good night.
Aakash: Good night.
Me: Aur "sir" mat bola karo dost ki tarah baat karo.
Aakash: Umar se kya hota hai, sir hi ho aap.
Me: Are nahi, normal baat karo.
Aakash: Thik hai.